from the hallway at 4am

I went to sleep at 9:30pm last night and seem to have had enough already. Oops. Having no electricity is like having jet lag.

My power gets turned on in a few hours and I can't wait. It's strange how much this world revolves around lights. I don't mind having no lights when I'm in the woods, but here it's just what it is.

So I'm in Guelph and I'm moving in and sort of getting my shit together. I hung out with Stacey one night and I think it was an alright thing. My feelings for her have greatly subsided and she has little appeal, even as a friend. I think throughout our conversation she began realizing why being best friends might be a bad idea.

I went to Toronto on Friday night and had a hilarious time at my friend's shit show of a birthday celebration. So good. I knew many of her badass friends from previous shindigs so it was cool. One of them I've always thought was super adorable. We have the same sense of humor and she used to live in Alberta. We get along well. I decided to romance her and we had a lovely and fairly respectable time of flirting and making out.

Contrast with Guelph life. This is the sort of town in which I have the sort of life where, when I come back, my friends tell me about the orgies they had, who has made out with my crushes, and who my ex has been sleeping with. Most of what I have to talk about is church camp. It's different. I went to this thing called Gay on the Green yesterday which is an orientation week event and it was kind of nice for a while, but then I saw Melody and her entourage rolling in on the other side of the picnic and I sort of flipped my shit and peaced. Like whoa. I didn't expect it to bother me but I think I'm just afraid of them.

So many people I don't understand or trust. I need to keep myself focused and engaged in life with good people. I'd like to have some sort of drama detox this fall. I live with a really wonderful woman from Montreal and I'm looking forward to getting to know her.